I'm Sorry that I Disappointed You...!

Dear You (DQ),

You are indeed a great personality - the way you talk, the way you smile, your obsession for success, love for your family. Your passion for your future, your thoughts, the purity in your heart, your friendly nature, your efforts to make me laugh when I feel alone, when I feel so low. Being yourself, being so generous, bold, caring, affectionate. You always pushed me towards success and every bit of this attracted me towards you.

I'm Sorry that I Disappointed You

I know I have disappointed you. But believe it or not, it was never my intention to make you feel that way. In the first place, why would I do that? Why would I hurt you? As they say sometimes people get hurt in the process because they care for each other.

I don't want to think highly of myself, but for you to feel that hurt only means that you care. And for me to be bothered this way also shows that I do care for you.

But I just want you to know, whether I do or don't do things that are beyond your expectations, or whether you get hurt or not in the process, I always care for you and it will never change no matter what happen as you say I can foresee anything. I would like to believe that.

Again, it was not my intention to disappoint you. But I know I cannot hide the truth that I was partly (or fully) at fault for making you feel that way. I am not good at doing such things on regular basis.

I have given you the reason to be disappointed about.

Believe it or not, I am sincerely apologetic for making you feel that way. I apologize for giving you reasons to believe that I can be a certain someone. I am deeply sorry for that.

I can't be sorry for the changes that have happened to me. Because if I do, I'll be saying sorry for being me. Whatever changes that have taken place in my life for the past days or months, are now part of who I am right now. And taking away those changes means taking away who I am.

Even though I was the cause of your disappointments, there is little I can do about that. It is your personal feelings that I cannot control. If only I could replace it with something wonderful so you won't feel hurt, I would do that. But having that feeling is part of who you are, and I don't want to change who you are -- good or bad -- because that is how I met and knew you.

We didn't have enough time to know each other better but I would like to believe that I know you. But I don't usually judge people or relationships based on the length of time they've been together. Because if you care and like to be with that someone, you'll make each day memorable. In that short period of time, we had our good days and bad days, and that's how we learn about each other. And I appreciated every second of it.

I feel bad for leaving because I know, knowing you, everything will not go back to the way it was. But I have hoped that things will be the same, somehow. But even though it's like that, the times and memories I had with you, will never change because they are already a part of me and who I am.

One of the things I really admire about you is your conviction and determination to be the best and for being the best. All my life, I have learned how to be satisfied for what I have. But with you, you pushed me to dream big again and to reach for more.

Thank you for being there to listen. I know that I’m a difficult person to understand but you were keen enough to listen and I am admitting that given the circumstances I hope my decision should be right the way I have planned it.

Thank you for being there for me. I will always remember how you were one of those people who encouraged me to do the best I could in everything I do. Trust me knowing you is one of the best feelings in my life and I can not give it away at any cost.

Yours,

A Man who can see the Future