Crush Alert - An Open Letter to My Crush

I believe most of the time too many thoughts go unsaid because either situations are not positive, or you are tied up with some imaginary bonds. However, as they say you can create/see beauty in everything, if you stop feeling hurt and believe in the Magic. I always say, “do the favour to the universe and don’t hide your magic”. I come from old school where Love at first sight was a thing, and this right swipe technology can not beat that. Sometimes Love can be most unexpected thing in life which can destroy all your plans and you cannot understand the maths (When you involve maths then it becomes more critical hence the reference) behind it. I wrote about what we see in a girl to get attracted however this can’t be true all the time and sometimes you get attracted to the vibe (Magic) when you were least expecting it. It’s a contagious and you won’t get over it.

Personally, I always get attracted to broken souls, pain behind those smiles, Big eyes and hidden darkness which is expecting a light of hope. Somehow, I start feeling responsible to fix and understand those feelings (People say I don’t understand feelings and I don’t care about them) so I can absorb and understand other people prospective. When you start understanding the person by seeing the soul then there is no going back at least for me. It’s a trap for me and I always remain there in Love. Sometimes you cannot explain, what you see in a person. It is just the way they take you to the places where no one else can. It’s hard to get rid of the demons inside you because they were holding you once no one was there but it doesn’t mean you have to be there even if you get a chance to embrace light. Sometimes I am in love with the impossibility of us because being in Love is beautiful. That’s the reason I am too old for Internet Love and I believe in falling in Love.

I am sure by now you would have started to think what I am trying to say. I am having a mental block for almost 4 years as I failed to read a person with whom I had spend 7 years (3 years knowing I judged her well and 4 years thinking what to do and how to get out of it). In this journey for 4 years I have met few people who have helped me in coping up the situation apart from Family and brother from other mothers. Those people have worked magic in my life, and I fell for them unknowingly but never expressed because I always was either in wrong story or at wrong time.

Love. It truly is a magical feeling when it’s shared. Slow down. It takes time and, yes, it usually begins with a crush. That can be frightening because no one likes to feel rejected, and crushes can work both ways. I am sharing this letter so they can know how I feel about them and there would be many more people who would share my thoughts too (whoever have seen the magic). Just because people don’t vocalize things, they love about you or the qualities they admire, doesn’t mean you aren’t admired for all that you are. The second reason is to free myself by being vulnerable and I believe this is the best way. One of the most beautiful things in a person is emotional vulnerability, so why would I not use that to my advantage? Be the energy you wish to attract and live more in the uncomfortable. I hope one day I could say "Will you be my Valentine forever?".

Dear You,

I love your energy and vibe and I believe you already know that though. You know the last time I was easily able to see this when I was in 5^th Grade, and I admitted that I liked a girl. I have a crush on you or may be more than that because thinking about you makes me dizzy and all I get excited when I see you virtually or in person. I have been feeling this way for some time and I really don’t know how to say it and if I should say it because things are much better this way where I don’t have fear to loose you and I don’t want to find out if this revelation of feeling will change it. I have never told you these feelings because I don’t want to make things awkward. I am being the greatest overthinker alive and I know that you are too sweet to lose over something silly like the romantic feelings of me for you which are not mutual (I don’t know). I have always thanked my crushes for touching my life in such a beautiful way which made me a better person.

We were connected for the longer time and but not have known each other for the longest time but I know this for sure that I have feelings for you. Whether they may be of infatuation or actual love, I don’t know yet. The only thing I know that you are kind hearted, amazing, soulful and one of the most fantastic people I have ever known. I couldn’t bear to see you hurt. I would lose my mind.

Let me explain myself, my Cancerian friend says I always keep things with me and don’t express in person which is not correct. As per him you deserve to know (he doesn’t know you yet) and hear how truly amazing you are and it’s unfortunate that in this internet and app generation that letters like these are not written more often. First, you are hilarious, and I love that we can build off each other’s humour. It’s not your wit or intellectual humour because you are yet to reach there as training is in process but you are silly at the same time. When I started interacting with you, I couldn’t believe that how effortlessly you can be weird, quirky, goofy and childish at the same time. You seem like pure light which just reached the darkest places of my heart which was closed for more than years.  

I also love and appreciate that you are sensitive, thoughtful, and deep. My Mom is one of the strongest pillars in my life and she has taught me that strength is not how little you can allow yourself to feel and care about everything and be loving even you can be hurt. I love that you are strong like that too. I love that you get emotional and are not ashamed by that as you believe that crying is good for beauty. It is beautiful and inspiring and makes me feel comfortable letting my guards down. Around you, I feel safe and protected. I don’t know if I can say I have ever felt that way around anyone before. I love that you see and like me for who I am and what I love.

I really do think you are incredibly cute and trust me that is not why I like you the way I do. I like you for so many more important reasons than the way you look. I love the way you are and the way you make me feel basis your stupid ideas to spend my weekends (on B and A). You are kind, affectionate, silly and loving and most inspiring thing is that you are hardworking, have dreams, you are interesting and you are willing to fight for your dreams. I always have this fear if people going to like me for me, who I am, for my heart, with my broken soul and my darkness which kept me captive for the longest time. For someone to love me like that I can wait a long time, because I don’t believe there is anything more magical than true love.

I love you so much, and it’s not just a made-up thing. When I’m with you, I feel like everything is possible and that life is perfect. It’s as if God created you to make my world the best place for me to live. You know, I can’t describe the kind of happiness that I feel every time my cell phone beeps and received your message. You deeply warm my heart and soul with those messages that you send to me. Those messages inspire me in life.

I know you and I believe I don’t have much time and current circumstances and timings are not favorable for us. I don’t want to make things more complicated for us than they already are. Regardless of your feelings and even if this doesn’t work, I will always cherish this connection forever and keep these feelings valuable and private. The thought of you reading this letter and able to understand that you are the one I am talking about and feeling so loved, appreciated, and valued brings me nothing but happiness. You mean everything to me. I love you for who you are, and I would never change that. Your smile, your eyes, your voice. I love it all. When you laugh, I laugh, when you smile, you make me weak in the knees every beat of my heart is for you… Thinking of you brings a smile to my face, and your face brings sunshine into mine.

I have made myself understood that we might be those twin flames who make us better persons who can handle anything in life. That could be the reason God has put us on those paths and somehow, I got connected to your unperfect way of handling things perfectly. I will accept it someday. So just spending time with you is something I look forward to. Every moment spent with you is a moment I treasure. I was so happy and inspired to see you always and almost every day is my happiness. Even though I know I am the only one feels that way. But it’s okay as I am not wishing that you do admire and care for me too. To see you is enough it brought smile to my heart. But unexpectedly I feel that there is hope between us.

Here is my favorite pickup line which I have used with 100% results might work on you “Hathi Naali me Bah nahi sakta, Main tumhare bina rah nahi sakta.”

Sincerely,

Me

What does it take to strike a chord in my heart?

The most debatable question of all the time “what does a guy look in a girl when they meet first?” How to be sure that she is the one? How guys hopelessly fall in Love without talking to a girl? How come one sided love came in existence where a guy loves a girl and girl is clueless all the time? How do we decide that she is the one? 

There are three steps (for me being a guy) to fall in love with a girl i.e. Appearance (Not Look and Beauty), Her Nature (Basis Observations) and Her Story (If we get to talk to her). If a girl passes these parameters then she got herself a secret admirer without knowing about it. 

Now there are two reasons to write this post, first being this is my blog, and I am authorized to write and second people kept on asking what do you look in a girl (they think I am expert here) or how can you decide that she is the one who has the privilege to break your heart (Happened me most of the time).

As we have lived in the era where movies and series have serious influence over our mind. However when you meet someone like her (Potential person) then your heart just says “she is the one”. Most of the time those girls even not know how influential their personality is which is affecting / inspiring so many souls. Sometimes its being loosely used that Guys always go for looks and beauty and trust me it could be one of the factors but are not the only factor. Well girls, men / guys are not s difficult to understand since they are very straightforward so you can easily decode those things which they notice about you day in day out. Sometimes we are even afraid to tell the same because “Thappad aur Rejection dono se dar lagta hai” and we have never thought ahead of this thought if this could actually work.

Here I am listing few interesting and may be surprising (I know we cant surprise a girl) things men notice about a women. These are based on my understanding and behavior and might not be applicable to even 90% of people (I know I am unique that way) but this would be an interesting read:

Those Eyes (Teri Aankhon ke Sivay dunia me rakha kya hai)

We (I) like to see through those big eyes from which we can see the soul as they say “eyes are the windows to the soul”. Those Eyes can tell us a lot about you even if you don’t talk or even don’t notice us. That is the main reasons most of the guys (not me) are very possessive about their girl because they know for the fact that yours eyes are real magnets that can attract and interest a stranger. Surveys have shown (When you add math's in post it becomes more authentic) that almost 75% of men pay attention to women’s eyes first and then to everything else. Secondly it is always easier for men to compliment about your eyes since women respond very approvingly to compliment about their eyes.

I am one of those stereotype who like those big childish eyes in which I can search the door of her heart (cheesy). Most of the time I zoned out if someone has those eyes because I prefer to have eye contact when I am talking.

A lot of information can be conveyed and received via eye contact, and any guy trying to get to know you will look to yours as a means of reading you (if he is good at it).

Killer Smile / Laugh (sathiyaa… Madhdham Madhdham Teri ye gili Hasi)

As they say a smile is contagious and that’s really true. Its not only a visible treat but sound of a good laugh can attract some of us (me for sure). Moreover, when you smile at someone it provokes a smile in return. A women’s mouth is often the first part a guy would notice not because of great lips or teeth but for social cues and trust me it is the most expressive feature a lady possess. A smile communicate to us in so many languages like “Hey there, you can talk to me” or “You can try but you have to really work hard for it” and “Get lost I am way above your league”. As an introvert person it affect me most of the time so I believe it must affect the next step a guy would like to take.

For me, A smiling woman is much more attractive as she sends the signal of happiness and optimism. Sometimes its easier to start a conversation with a smiling lady. I know its not so surprising but men always feel confident and more masculine with a smiling women. We (I) know which one is artificial smile and which one is natural that’s the reason sometimes we ask “All is well?” or “something is not right today”. The true sign of a sincere and natural smile is typical wrinkles around our eyes and I know because I practiced to smile a lot. My suggestions to all the girls, please smile more often since you never know who may be falling in love with your beautiful smile.

Can She Talk The Walk?

As they say actions speak louder than words the same way its very appealing for a Guy if that girl knows how to hold a conversation. Guys like me who feels difficulty in initiating a conversation and discussing the common topics then it become very necessary that she must have opinion about things which can bring us to common ground where we can put the foundation of the relationship.

The way she talks and the tone she uses to put her point forward. In few words if a girl who can hold a conversation is already attractive in a guy’s mind. For me she would be my 2 AM friend who can give opinion on some random thoughts which keeps me occupied all the time and she would be my conscious who can give me advice on the situation where I am stuck at times. 

The way She Carries Herself

They say that beautiful is something a girl needs to be but I believe instead of that she can be intelligent, interesting, witty, funny, sarcastic and 100 other things which she believes she can be. I think there are few things more beautiful than a confident woman and sometimes I will walk by a woman that radiates such confidence that I am automatically feel drawn to her energy. She must know how to carry herself whenever she is entering a room or a party. It is so attractive on a physical and nonphysical level. She must be strong and know who the heck she is.

Even if you aren’t feeling particularly confident one day, pretend you are. Carry yourself with confidence anyways. Men are attracted to women who know how to carry themselves.

Foot (First) Impression (Tumhare Pair Bahut Khoobsurat hain inhe jameen par mat rakho, Maile ho jayenge)

Okay, so its not a surprise anymore that some of the men love slim legs and they notice this about a woman. How she maintains her feet is another thing men notice and care about. In my opinion (I may be wrong) if a woman can look after her feet, she is someone who pays attention to details. I won’t write further as I do not have any intention to objectify something.

Her Sense of Humor

In fact this is the most important thing for me because I am being sarcastic sometimes which contains dark humor too. So I believe she should be the one who can understand these jokes and my pure intentions. You know it should not be our responsibility to make her laugh, we could expect the same from her. I hope guys are not expecting too much out of it lets say when we are having a bad day, she could try to make us smile with some humour or those tiny jokes and she must not give up until she knows that its fine. She must take life not that serious and even if she messed up something… so what? Make a silly remark and move on.

Ambitious, Humble and Her Refusal to settle for anything but the best

Everytime I see a woman actively pursuing her dreams and trying to get a better life for her and her closed ones. I always applaud that person and it find it very attractive myself because these qualities inspire me too. I want that person to know what she really wants and refuse to settle for anything less whether in a job, in a relationship, friendship or in life. I would be more than happy to change myself in order to alter my plans for her if she is so driven to become what she want to be. This may even mean to stand up for yourself and maybe even revaluate some relationships too. In my opinion everyone’s happiness is non negotiable so why not hers.

Needless to say confident and ambitious means cocky and sometimes people miss the difference. For me remaining humble is an essential part of knowing how to carry yourself. She can be more successful, most beautiful and most amazing human being in the world but she must not think that she better than others. That is being humble.

Sense Of Style 

A sense of style is a really fun way to express yourself because sense of style means for is to feel confident whatever you wear or wear those clothes in which you feel confident. Do not follow a fashion just because its trending and you have to be a part of that race. A Classy dresser lady has already bagged brownie points from him because the way she dresses gives us a certain impression about the woman personality and preferences. 

My have my biased opinion about dresses, if she drapes a saree I am already in Love (obviously she must know how to carry herself). In my alternate universe she must wear Saree at least once in a week not for people in general for me. Her ability to give an outfit personality AND be comfortable in it is what amazes me.

All said and done, she has her own preferences and rights to choose what is good for her and how she wanted to lead the life. However she can have many secret admirers (Not Stalkers) which even she might not know. Unless you are interfering with her privacy and personal space liking someone is very natural. So my advice to people out there is find someone who has these qualities and keep then with you and fight for them because it will help them as well as you. You will get a chance to be with most amazing person who can inspire you and support you. 

I have heard this quote somewhere “Naari Kal bhi Bhaari thi, Naari Aaj bhi Bhaari hai… Purush kal bhi Aabhari tha Purush aaj bhi Aabhari hai”.

Why Can't We Rise in Love ?

Being a Batman fan, I mostly loved all the dialogues from the movie (Christian Bale is my Batman) but one of the dialogue from that movie is very relevant for the topic which I am trying to explore today. When Alfred asks “Mr. Wayne, Why do we fall?” and then he answers himself “So, we can rise again”. That was a raw idea behind this post and then someone has inspired me in recent times to give some thoughts about how I feel about certain things. So I took the most overrated and over discussed topic for the post “What is Love and why we fall into it”.

Love is a word that has been used in many different contexts. It can be romantic love, platonic love, spiritual love, or even the love for your country. However, the one thing that does not change is the feeling of happiness and excitement when you are in love with someone. But since beginning we have been infused with some borrowed thoughts and I could say feelings too where we have been told that what a love could be. For example all SRK movies for that matter which has given us (boys) complex and set the standard so high that all the girls were looking for Raj and Rahul and in between average looking people got suffered (pain is real). In the same process sense of being lonely for rest of your life made us believe that whatever is being told in movies or stories are real. In this circus the actual feelings got lost and no one knows what is being in love. I have been questioning myself what could it be like being in love or what should I be feeling when I am in love. Then comes the billion dollar question why everyone is falling in love as if it is a mistake or a trap. Being analytical and overthinker by nature I believe we fall in trap, we fall on road and we fall in well which also suggests that we were not paying attention then why people use loosely this phrase “I fell in love” which will follow with the sentence “and it was a mistake”.

To assume of love as something to fall into can be limiting to relationships and in some instances inaccurate. Instead of falling in love, a greater fruitful thinking is to “Rise in Love”. Love is a very complex and difficult thing to define. It is not just one emotion but many emotions that can be hard to identify. Falling in love happens when we are attracted to someone, and we don’t know why. Love is an emotion that we experience and it’s a feeling that cannot be described with words. 

But what if you are unable to understand what your feelings are? 

What if you fall for anyone? 

What if trust and togetherness doesn’t matter to you? 

What if finding a life partner is not important to you? 

What if being in Love with someone is just enough to live life? 

What if your perfect person is in front of you and you do not want to accept that affection? 

Reasons could be 100s but the point which I am trying to derive that we fall when we are not ready, that could be the reason we “fall in love” instead of “Rise in Love”. 

May be falling is always easy and this could be the reason we always fall in love. Just imagine you are falling from 100 foot building and it will take only few seconds for you to reach the bottom of the building. Now you will say that fall in love is not equal to falling from the building. I would agree but it is a fall that has tempted many souls throughout our histories, movies and serials. Love appears inviting and tremendous on the different side of the fall, and we overlook everything so we can leap. As referred earlier that SRK movies have made falling in love so fancy so they can conveniently overlooked the problems in real life. Many of us (including me) hold fantasy about how a real love will look like and feel like. 

Will violin play?

Will I fall like SRK in Om Shanti Om? 

Will I be lost in her eyes ignoring that hello which she is saying to me? 

Will I be lost talking to her and just nod my head in between (Its an art)?

Will it be like fanboy moment?

Lets say you find this person, you may expect this person to understand you, accept your faults and meet all your emotional needs and if all flags turn out to be green then this person will want to marry you. Someone once told me that you want someone who can hear your silence and I was like this could be a too much expectation from someone. But in real life when you project this fantasy of perfection onto whomever you are dating then this fantasy mixes with real life issues and the desperate desire to be loved. When these ingredients mixes it creates a powerful toxic acid for your life. At this time we may feel anger, resentment, doubt and even despair. We think, “How can I be not lucky in love? Where is my Raj from DDLJ? Where is my real Soul mate? Why these things happen with me?  Then we closed our heart from the most important and powerful feeling called Love.

So here is the idea which I want to sell that instead of falling in love, we need to rise in love. We need to evolve beyond our expectations about lover’s nature. We must realize that love is much more than the templates set like soulmate, marriage and family. These ideas have corrupted us (means generations) by media, society, families and those 4 people whom I am searching since childhood. 

If Love (means emotion) could talk, he might ask that why people have been burdened him with accusations that he causes miserable pain. How can a emotion as beautiful as love causes pain, if it is causing pain its not love. For example I have find a girl who I think is picture perfect for me and she will be a perfect object (No disrespect just an example) of my affection and when she fail living up to that expectations, I feel pain. Then who is causing pain, in my opinion Love is not. 

Like a hypocrite, we want unconditional love but in the same sentence we put the condition that my partner should love me like someone whom I have admired in my earlier days. In my opinion Love should be free and unconditional and my point of rising in love means seeing the love unconditionally in all forms. There would not be pain as acceptance is pathway to true love and freedom. If you think you could be happy by binding someone via rituals, norms or other conditions then you are not right entirely. Sometimes people are so good in compromising and due to society and those norms they just live the life in regret and grief. In my opinion that is not an example of leading a good life or having a relationship where you lose yourself in the process.

Our desperation of searching Love that distracts us and keep us away from finding love we truly desire or seek. The Love which starts from you where you first find yourself then be in love without putting a condition there.

Now I have set the context so we could agree that falling in love does some damages over a period of time and you lose a sense of your identity and your personality traits changes basis the preferences of your partner. You always look forward to your partner for validations and seek approvals from him/her. You keep on doing the same thing which your partner likes and in mean time you lose your individuality and forget how happy you were when you first got an idea of being in love. I am sure there are million other ways to go wrong in this approach as love does not teach you that. As I like to showoff that my mathematics and analytical skills are great and when you say things combining with numbers those seems more appealing. So here it goes, two people come together in a relationship to share their space with the feeling of love which means as two individuals you were 100% in love with each other that’s why you decided to come together. If you do not love one hundred per cent of someone, you do no longer deserve their love and it’s as easy as that. Loving must be as convenient as breathing, and it must evoke emotions of joy, happiness and positivity. 

Now as I have established myself as a person who knows it all so here are few pointers which you would save you from falling in love and instead rising in love with your perfect partner:

Accept each other (Meaning 100%)

First rule of relationship which needs to be followed to the core. Embrace the flaws of your partner first and make a peace with it once and for all. Everyone thinks that their life is complex so in that case with whom you are moving forward is no exception which means you and that person built differently. I keep on saying that perfection is an illusion and its better to accept that you might have flaws which will make you more humane. You must have a progressive thought process to understand someone’s behavior instead of judging them basis those short comings.

Give them space to grow

Many people in relationships have trouble with giving each other space. They are afraid that they may lose the other person’s attention, or they think that they will get lost in their partner’s life.

But that isn’t the case. Giving your partner space will help you both to grow individually and together. It allows you to find out more about your self and what you want out of life and your future relationship.

Since we spend a significant amount of time with our partners, we need time apart from them too. That way when we come back together, we are enriched with new takeaways and can tell our stories to each other which leads to more intimacy and understanding of our partners' perspective on things

Have a good Ear

Sometimes all you need is to listen because your partner just want to vent out the thoughts which are bothering them. No matter how contradictory opinions are from each other, you have to remember the rule no. 1 that they are allowed to be different and it doesn’t really matter if you both are not aligned with one thought. If you follow that then instead of having heated arguments you will learn something new from her/him.

5 Complements in a day (lol, who is counting)

Everyone wants to listen something good about themselves. If you complement someone you will get to see the following:

1. Those puppy eyes looking at you (👀)
2. Blushing cheeks which will turn red eventually (😳)
3. And in return this sentence “really, you are joking right?” (😂)

I would do anything possible in the world to see these on a regular basis. You can make them feel special all you need to pay attention to small details (I did PHD) and try to choose words which evoke positivity. This will ensure positivity and happiness all around. 

Learn and Learn to improve 

We should always be open to learning from each other. When we have a willingness to learn from each other and are willing to accept differences, we can gain more knowledge.

Many people are under the impression that they can never learn anything new because they think they know it all. However, people should be open to learning new things. They should be willing to try new methods and strategies so that they can grow in their profession or field. For example I know someone who has totally different point of view about life and that was not practical but when I learn about that person I understood the prospective towards thing and you wont believe that shook my thought process too.

We spend most of our time with people, which means we need to find the right person. But it's not only about the person we date. It may sound like a lot but it's something that is worth thinking about carefully before making a decision. There is nothing more exciting than falling in love and getting to know someone on such a deep level, feeling butterflies as your feelings grow for him/her and there is nothing more important. But you should make yourself a promise that even after falling in love or after failing in love you will never hit rock bottom again. You have to take care of yourself and you will date again and this time in Love, you will rise instead of falling into it. Rising is the only option available for you because you are not suppose to go down because no one deserve being hurt in Love. must know that you have to rise because you are Love and Love is not here to let you fall and break. 

In other words, despite all the pointers and opinion I have, there’s something about love, falling in love, being in love surpasses all our definitions and attempts to understand. But, in the end, we love who we love, and the act of loving makes us who we are. If I do not close this post with following lines then I am not at all doing justice to this

Jise dhoondhta hoon main har gali… Wo Ladki hai Kahaan…!!!

Love is not Enough ?

 "The fact is, love is not enough. All those fairytales, all those stories and movies you've heard and watched growing up, lied to you. Love is never enough because love is irrational." ~Unknown

Afraid to Fall in Love Again - Curious Case

It's not that I don't believe in love... I am very strong believer in it actually... I am just deathly terrified that it doesn't believe in me...!! 

Why do we always desire or have feelings for one when you can be completely indifferent to another person? Why do we fall in love in most uncomfortable scenarios? Why it is difficult to find out the reason for falling in love? Why can we not stop that feeling just by putting some logical reasoning or counter arguments? Why we keep on falling for the same person against every odds? All these questions are remained unanswered for me and I feel scared to fall in Love because it gives you the responsibility of the other person without letting that person know. For me love is responsibility to be happy together and it’s a raw form of the highest emotion which you can not control. Secondly once you are in love there is no Control + Z button to undo it. Lets try to explore the reasons why we are afraid to fall in Love via this post.

Most of the people including me fall in love with someone who unconsciously reminds us that we are home and safe. The same feeling which you have experienced in childhood which is already placed in your subconscious memory. The said resemblance, which can be difficult to see consciously, can be gestural, in relation to opinions or even habits. The resemblance, therefore, plays an undeniable role in the attraction because it awakens a deep and powerful feelings inside you.

In the mind from childhood we see all aspect of the life and find some misplaced parts of the puzzle which we call life and we start searching for those missed parts all the time. For example, if, when you were a child, your parents were keeping you in check and allow you to take decision basis your experience and learning, you will have to unconsciously seek a partner who will fill this gap. So in this case, a person who will not be afraid of putting her opinion forward and express their feelings.

Thus, we unconsciously seek in our partner, to remedy a psychological need, a wound to be healed, a lack to be filled, which according to us, we missed during our life until now. As they say we wander our life looking for our twin who completes us and which on certain points is also different from us. For example, if you are a spontaneous person, you may be looking for a thoughtful and composed partner because you do not have this quality.

I always said and keep on saying, women are mature than man any given point of time if they take a call basis their heart and mind. Men are usually thrilled about falling in love but none of them will admit it. They all, deep inside, crave love and affection like everyone do. But they will not talk about it in open and keep on thinking on imaginary scenarios because rejection rate is very high and everyone is afraid of rejections.

Sometimes, his fear of commitment or his current situation can lead you on a wrong path. You may just give up on him because you think he is not that into you. He is not showing emotions, he is probably even very nervous around you. Trust me it does not mean he does not have feelings for you or he is not into you. It can be the complete opposite. He does have the hots but he is scared to fall in love.

Here is how you’ll definitely know he is just chickening out and needs a little push because he likes you but is afraid to admit it.

#His Mixed Signals (All sort of)

You might go crazy trying to decode his message. This happens when he himself does not know how to act around you that’s why he is acting so weird. One moment he is very much interested in you and the next he is nowhere to be found. He is confused with his stand and is very afraid to act on it. He likes you for some reason but something might be stopping him to act on it. You need to find out that reason.

There could be a chances that he had a broken heart or any unlucky relationship before and he is afraid to repeat that story so he is acting that way where he might be seeking your clarity.

#He is slow

He wants to take things slow and practically keep it light. Well, this means he likes you but (and there is always a but) he is probably not ready to be with you for real. He definitely has some unresolved issues that life has thrown at him and he needs to deal with them. He knows there is no going back from there. What would happen if he gets rejected and that thought would drive him crazy. Since he is still overwhelmed with everything new going on in his life, you, he needs a bit of time to process things and get rid of his fear.

Don’t assume right away that he doesn’t like you if he keeps you at arm’s length and most of the time he does not know what to talk. Leave him alone and go on living your life. If he realizes with time that he has loved you all this time, great, if not, you’ll get by fine without him.

#He is always there

Even if you both are not together, he will always be there for you whenever you need a helping hand. He can be a person to whom you can bring any stuff and he will come along with you as a friend or as a partner in crime. If you are in trouble, he will be there to get you out of it.

Real friends do that but men who secretly love you do that too. He’ll stick around when there is no one else left. That’s how you’ll know he likes you but is scared to fall for you.

#He is a Google Reminder

He will care for all small stuff and remember all important things for you. Even small stuff which no one else will give a damn. When you are sick, he will follow up with you and this shows that he is interested in you, as these small details that no one notices is what separates him from the others.

He is into whatever you are into for sure. Men have this urge to impress women they like even if they are not aware of it. He will listen attentively and probably say that he shares most of your interests even if he doesn’t and in longer run he will learn it for you.

#Gets Jealous all the time

He will never show you exactly what he is jealous about and trust me he will never tell you or talk about it but you will see from the way he behaves. You will notice he will change the subjects or cut your call by telling there is another call if you’re talking about your guy friends, or he’ll get nervous and he won’t be able to control his feelings or reactions.

This is kind of cute and by now you would have known this guy if he is harmless of not. Jealousy can be a bitch and its hard to get rid of it but as a indication you can get that he is afraid of losing you and he likes you but doesn’t know how to deal with it. Most of the time when the guy would know that you are into your other friend then the arm length distance tend to increase.

#Overprotective

When a man in love, Logic disappears. He will do somethings in life which are not really logical for example calling you multiple times to check if you reach home and check on you unless he gets a revert. Sometimes these things get you irritated but you can not change this habit in him.

He will behave the way his heart tells him and not his mind. All rationality will be gone. If he thinks that talking to you is hampering you or he is disturbing you, he might stop talking to you. Trust me a man in love only sees you and fears you might get hurt and wants to be there to protect you.

#Follow you religiously

He will use you as a black board and dump all the information to you and all the incidents which took in the day. He always keep an eye on you, Let’s say you are at the same party and every time you look at him, he is looking right back at you.

Even though a lot of other people are around him and he is actively participating in conversations, he will subconsciously look for you and acknowledge your presence. 

So there is nothing called perfect communication and a Man in love definitely does not have when they are faced with the woman of their dreams. They will do their best to hide their feeling early on and if someone is saying that he is honest upfront on everything he would be lying or he would not talk about the topics where he has to lie.

Taking the representation from all those man I wanted to say that: we hide our feelings because we do not want to get ahead of ourselves and we will want to know if our feelings are reciprocated before we open up.

We might be mysterious and weird but we are definitely not fake…!!

Will You Be My Valentine?

Before we talk about the reasons why you should be my Valentine (forever) and why I believe that you are making the difference in my life. Let’s talk about the feelings which forces you to express from your heart but mind always overruled the situation. When we fall in love with an individual, we give them a piece of our existence and hope. We share same bond and make it stronger and this feeling is beyond comprehension. That’s how two people grow closer to one another and form a never-ending bond of happiness, tears and silence. In my opinion “I LOVE YOU” is the most selfish phrase ever written where I would be putting myself before Love and “You” and without “I” this phrase seems incomplete. For me Love is beyond logic, situation and condition, I believe “Loving anyone can not be bound under any conditions”. Hence, I have never used this phrase till now. Love should be there in a raw form which only can be felt, that is the reason they say, “the Love is in the Air”.

Reasons for loving someone?

These reasons can not be logically addressed. These come to my mind when I miss them. When I feel, I am about to lose them or they are beyond my reach or may be I wont be able to see them. They are constant reminders of my love for them. When I miss the one, I love, my mind just starts jotting down the words on its own. I just wear my overthinking cap and think about the 8 aspect of the outcomes. I believe in the power of expression and expressing one’s feelings should be of the utmost importance. Without revealing our emotions and our thoughts into words, I don’t think we can lead to a honest self-life where we should not justify our steps which were not taken. It is a feeling where your heart skips a beat and your hands are shaky and joy overwhelms when you hear her voice or see her or you are with her, but you can’t find the right words to express how you feel. You mind make us cute phrases and tiny cheesy sentences, but it simply doesn’t cut it to put a feeling so strong and so big into something as tiny as words.

I am told that though the words are tiny, they have a much greater impact than one would think. That’s the reason I am here with the list of 14 reasons why You should be my Valentine or Why I feel the connection:

1. You’re my best friend, If I had to write 100 reasons why I feel this connection with you this would be my favourite one. You and I are a team. We have so much fun doing absolutely nothing. Sitting idle with you seems so much interesting. We share chemistry so strong nothing can break it. We might not look perfect on paper, but we are acute angle. You are the one of my safe haven, my first call whenever something happens (good or bad), you are someone I can talk to about anything and everything. That feeling is making me love myself more, and without even trying, you are turning me into a better person . With you by my side, I am the best version of me. 

2. I want you to be my valentine because you introduce me to a new universe. I never felt fully accepted before you came along. Someone was always trying to make me different to fit their world. They always pushed me to change, and you wouldn’t have me any other way. In your eyes, I am just the right amount of weirdness and remarkableness. You like the bright parts of me but accept my darker days as well. You do not expect me to be someone I’m not, and that’s so liberating and help me to be grounded.

3. I want you to be my valentine because you saved me from the demons that possessed me. I think you are my guardian angel. Having you around make me feel safe and I can be vulnerable too. Never in my life had I known a person so dependable and then you came along. You never lie to me or mess with my feelings. I can depend on you for everything as you can on me. Let me tell you that it was the first hand feeling that with you I can relax and silence my fears.

4. I want you to be my valentine because you make me laugh and you make me forget the world. I think being with you is as easy as breathing. You don’t complicate things; there is no drama or mind games. You make me the happiest I’ve ever been. You don’t have to do anything special—your presence alone is enough to make my day amazing. You make every ordinary moment count. Laughter, inside jokes (sarcasm and Mean Jokes).

5. I want you to be my valentine because I am scared of getting closer to you as I have a burden of the past but I am not scared that you will leave because I have learned to respect the choices of people as everyone has a right to live their life on their terms. You are always in my corner, cheering me on to believe in myself and push harder. With you by my side, there is nothing I can’t do. You silence my insecurities.

6. I want you to be my valentine because you are interested in unravelling the words of my untold story. The words that I vowed never to show anyone. You make me want to read them out loud and you make me want to write a happy ending. Maybe everything isn’t always perfect like in the fairytales, but I still love the reality of us more. Let me quote SRK “Agar akhir me sab achchha na ho to samajhna Picture abhi baaki hai mere dost”. All of the stories I have seen but it seems in this story, we can be our unique selves. In our story, even the most difficult of times are easier because we have one another to lean on.

7. I want you to be my valentine because when I miss you I know where to find you. I admit most of the time my overthinking stops me doing something which I want to do but deep inside my heart I know you would be there. Sometimes we don’t even have to speak to understand one another. We pick up on each other’s vibes. We know when it’s best to say nothing and I am learning when it’s best to speak up. 

8. I want you to be my valentine because there is something so strong between us that there is no logic which can explain it. I feel so much that words don’t cut it. If you feel the same for me, you will know what I’m talking about. I adore you. When we talk, I forget that the rest of the world exists. For me, there is no one but you. This love consumes me.

9. I want you to be my valentine because you make me feel like a kid in love. it’s funny, but I fell so hard for you that it makes me feel like a teenager who has found his connection for the first time in his life. I look forward to every text or call from you. I can’t wait to see you, and I can never get enough of you.

10. I want you to be my valentine because you are my soulmate and whenever I see a movie or listen to those cheesy lines: “I knew from the moment I met you”. It seemed so fake to me because before you, I could never say that. I really did know that you were someone special from the moment I laid my eyes on you. You are the most beautiful thing happen to me. What I felt at that moment had nothing to do with reason and logic. I guess emotions rarely do. I am glad you proved me wrong. 

11. I want you to be my valentine because you value me. I know there is no point in wandering through the past, but I guess it’s excusable when it helps you value the present moment. Sometime circumstances do not allow me to express as I think people will judge me. I have always been taken for granted and my actions were judged basis people convenience irrespective of my intentions. 

12. I want you to be my valentine because I am done running away from you since I felt this special feeling. I miss you when you are not around. That’s one of the first signs that screamed that I fall for you before I gathered up the courage to admit it to myself. I get threatened with the thought of not getting to see you or not able to talk to you. I always tried to hide it and run away from the situation because I think I am not the one for you but the distance makes this feeling more stronger.

13. I want you to be my valentine because I love making memories with you. We have shared so much so far that it seems like I know you far more than I do. We have shared moments so beautiful and so powerful that they are making me warm inside every time I think of them. Those memories are the reasons I never feel down even in the toughest situations.

14. I want you to be my valentine because you because you made my walls tumble down. My past made me build walls around my heart that I thought were unbreachable. I was someone else who was just existing in my life and justifying all my actions to the people around me. You showed me that you were different. You showed me that I can trust you. You showed me that you would never intentionally hurt me, and I had no other choice but to let you get close. I am glad I did. You taught me how to love again by believing in me, by believing in your gut feeling that if we were meant to be, we will be together.

I spent half of my life dreaming about that one special person, and you put my dreams to bring shame on. You are better than anything I could ever dream or imagine. You are the one who compliments my life and makes it incredible. There could never be anyone else but you. I am not sure if this all make sense but end of the day… You are the magic I believed in and there is no logic when it comes to magic. The moments with you, thats when I wish I could stop time!

Happy Valentines day !

Yours,

Table No. 18, Pepe Verde's Cafe