Crush Alert - An Open Letter to My Crush

I believe most of the time too many thoughts go unsaid because either situations are not positive, or you are tied up with some imaginary bonds. However, as they say you can create/see beauty in everything, if you stop feeling hurt and believe in the Magic. I always say, “do the favour to the universe and don’t hide your magic”. I come from old school where Love at first sight was a thing, and this right swipe technology can not beat that. Sometimes Love can be most unexpected thing in life which can destroy all your plans and you cannot understand the maths (When you involve maths then it becomes more critical hence the reference) behind it. I wrote about what we see in a girl to get attracted however this can’t be true all the time and sometimes you get attracted to the vibe (Magic) when you were least expecting it. It’s a contagious and you won’t get over it.

Personally, I always get attracted to broken souls, pain behind those smiles, Big eyes and hidden darkness which is expecting a light of hope. Somehow, I start feeling responsible to fix and understand those feelings (People say I don’t understand feelings and I don’t care about them) so I can absorb and understand other people prospective. When you start understanding the person by seeing the soul then there is no going back at least for me. It’s a trap for me and I always remain there in Love. Sometimes you cannot explain, what you see in a person. It is just the way they take you to the places where no one else can. It’s hard to get rid of the demons inside you because they were holding you once no one was there but it doesn’t mean you have to be there even if you get a chance to embrace light. Sometimes I am in love with the impossibility of us because being in Love is beautiful. That’s the reason I am too old for Internet Love and I believe in falling in Love.

I am sure by now you would have started to think what I am trying to say. I am having a mental block for almost 4 years as I failed to read a person with whom I had spend 7 years (3 years knowing I judged her well and 4 years thinking what to do and how to get out of it). In this journey for 4 years I have met few people who have helped me in coping up the situation apart from Family and brother from other mothers. Those people have worked magic in my life, and I fell for them unknowingly but never expressed because I always was either in wrong story or at wrong time.

Love. It truly is a magical feeling when it’s shared. Slow down. It takes time and, yes, it usually begins with a crush. That can be frightening because no one likes to feel rejected, and crushes can work both ways. I am sharing this letter so they can know how I feel about them and there would be many more people who would share my thoughts too (whoever have seen the magic). Just because people don’t vocalize things, they love about you or the qualities they admire, doesn’t mean you aren’t admired for all that you are. The second reason is to free myself by being vulnerable and I believe this is the best way. One of the most beautiful things in a person is emotional vulnerability, so why would I not use that to my advantage? Be the energy you wish to attract and live more in the uncomfortable. I hope one day I could say "Will you be my Valentine forever?".

Dear You,

I love your energy and vibe and I believe you already know that though. You know the last time I was easily able to see this when I was in 5^th Grade, and I admitted that I liked a girl. I have a crush on you or may be more than that because thinking about you makes me dizzy and all I get excited when I see you virtually or in person. I have been feeling this way for some time and I really don’t know how to say it and if I should say it because things are much better this way where I don’t have fear to loose you and I don’t want to find out if this revelation of feeling will change it. I have never told you these feelings because I don’t want to make things awkward. I am being the greatest overthinker alive and I know that you are too sweet to lose over something silly like the romantic feelings of me for you which are not mutual (I don’t know). I have always thanked my crushes for touching my life in such a beautiful way which made me a better person.

We were connected for the longer time and but not have known each other for the longest time but I know this for sure that I have feelings for you. Whether they may be of infatuation or actual love, I don’t know yet. The only thing I know that you are kind hearted, amazing, soulful and one of the most fantastic people I have ever known. I couldn’t bear to see you hurt. I would lose my mind.

Let me explain myself, my Cancerian friend says I always keep things with me and don’t express in person which is not correct. As per him you deserve to know (he doesn’t know you yet) and hear how truly amazing you are and it’s unfortunate that in this internet and app generation that letters like these are not written more often. First, you are hilarious, and I love that we can build off each other’s humour. It’s not your wit or intellectual humour because you are yet to reach there as training is in process but you are silly at the same time. When I started interacting with you, I couldn’t believe that how effortlessly you can be weird, quirky, goofy and childish at the same time. You seem like pure light which just reached the darkest places of my heart which was closed for more than years.  

I also love and appreciate that you are sensitive, thoughtful, and deep. My Mom is one of the strongest pillars in my life and she has taught me that strength is not how little you can allow yourself to feel and care about everything and be loving even you can be hurt. I love that you are strong like that too. I love that you get emotional and are not ashamed by that as you believe that crying is good for beauty. It is beautiful and inspiring and makes me feel comfortable letting my guards down. Around you, I feel safe and protected. I don’t know if I can say I have ever felt that way around anyone before. I love that you see and like me for who I am and what I love.

I really do think you are incredibly cute and trust me that is not why I like you the way I do. I like you for so many more important reasons than the way you look. I love the way you are and the way you make me feel basis your stupid ideas to spend my weekends (on B and A). You are kind, affectionate, silly and loving and most inspiring thing is that you are hardworking, have dreams, you are interesting and you are willing to fight for your dreams. I always have this fear if people going to like me for me, who I am, for my heart, with my broken soul and my darkness which kept me captive for the longest time. For someone to love me like that I can wait a long time, because I don’t believe there is anything more magical than true love.

I love you so much, and it’s not just a made-up thing. When I’m with you, I feel like everything is possible and that life is perfect. It’s as if God created you to make my world the best place for me to live. You know, I can’t describe the kind of happiness that I feel every time my cell phone beeps and received your message. You deeply warm my heart and soul with those messages that you send to me. Those messages inspire me in life.

I know you and I believe I don’t have much time and current circumstances and timings are not favorable for us. I don’t want to make things more complicated for us than they already are. Regardless of your feelings and even if this doesn’t work, I will always cherish this connection forever and keep these feelings valuable and private. The thought of you reading this letter and able to understand that you are the one I am talking about and feeling so loved, appreciated, and valued brings me nothing but happiness. You mean everything to me. I love you for who you are, and I would never change that. Your smile, your eyes, your voice. I love it all. When you laugh, I laugh, when you smile, you make me weak in the knees every beat of my heart is for you… Thinking of you brings a smile to my face, and your face brings sunshine into mine.

I have made myself understood that we might be those twin flames who make us better persons who can handle anything in life. That could be the reason God has put us on those paths and somehow, I got connected to your unperfect way of handling things perfectly. I will accept it someday. So just spending time with you is something I look forward to. Every moment spent with you is a moment I treasure. I was so happy and inspired to see you always and almost every day is my happiness. Even though I know I am the only one feels that way. But it’s okay as I am not wishing that you do admire and care for me too. To see you is enough it brought smile to my heart. But unexpectedly I feel that there is hope between us.

Here is my favorite pickup line which I have used with 100% results might work on you “Hathi Naali me Bah nahi sakta, Main tumhare bina rah nahi sakta.”

Sincerely,

Me

What does it take to strike a chord in my heart?

The most debatable question of all the time “what does a guy look in a girl when they meet first?” How to be sure that she is the one? How guys hopelessly fall in Love without talking to a girl? How come one sided love came in existence where a guy loves a girl and girl is clueless all the time? How do we decide that she is the one? 

There are three steps (for me being a guy) to fall in love with a girl i.e. Appearance (Not Look and Beauty), Her Nature (Basis Observations) and Her Story (If we get to talk to her). If a girl passes these parameters then she got herself a secret admirer without knowing about it. 

Now there are two reasons to write this post, first being this is my blog, and I am authorized to write and second people kept on asking what do you look in a girl (they think I am expert here) or how can you decide that she is the one who has the privilege to break your heart (Happened me most of the time).

As we have lived in the era where movies and series have serious influence over our mind. However when you meet someone like her (Potential person) then your heart just says “she is the one”. Most of the time those girls even not know how influential their personality is which is affecting / inspiring so many souls. Sometimes its being loosely used that Guys always go for looks and beauty and trust me it could be one of the factors but are not the only factor. Well girls, men / guys are not s difficult to understand since they are very straightforward so you can easily decode those things which they notice about you day in day out. Sometimes we are even afraid to tell the same because “Thappad aur Rejection dono se dar lagta hai” and we have never thought ahead of this thought if this could actually work.

Here I am listing few interesting and may be surprising (I know we cant surprise a girl) things men notice about a women. These are based on my understanding and behavior and might not be applicable to even 90% of people (I know I am unique that way) but this would be an interesting read:

Those Eyes (Teri Aankhon ke Sivay dunia me rakha kya hai)

We (I) like to see through those big eyes from which we can see the soul as they say “eyes are the windows to the soul”. Those Eyes can tell us a lot about you even if you don’t talk or even don’t notice us. That is the main reasons most of the guys (not me) are very possessive about their girl because they know for the fact that yours eyes are real magnets that can attract and interest a stranger. Surveys have shown (When you add math's in post it becomes more authentic) that almost 75% of men pay attention to women’s eyes first and then to everything else. Secondly it is always easier for men to compliment about your eyes since women respond very approvingly to compliment about their eyes.

I am one of those stereotype who like those big childish eyes in which I can search the door of her heart (cheesy). Most of the time I zoned out if someone has those eyes because I prefer to have eye contact when I am talking.

A lot of information can be conveyed and received via eye contact, and any guy trying to get to know you will look to yours as a means of reading you (if he is good at it).

Killer Smile / Laugh (sathiyaa… Madhdham Madhdham Teri ye gili Hasi)

As they say a smile is contagious and that’s really true. Its not only a visible treat but sound of a good laugh can attract some of us (me for sure). Moreover, when you smile at someone it provokes a smile in return. A women’s mouth is often the first part a guy would notice not because of great lips or teeth but for social cues and trust me it is the most expressive feature a lady possess. A smile communicate to us in so many languages like “Hey there, you can talk to me” or “You can try but you have to really work hard for it” and “Get lost I am way above your league”. As an introvert person it affect me most of the time so I believe it must affect the next step a guy would like to take.

For me, A smiling woman is much more attractive as she sends the signal of happiness and optimism. Sometimes its easier to start a conversation with a smiling lady. I know its not so surprising but men always feel confident and more masculine with a smiling women. We (I) know which one is artificial smile and which one is natural that’s the reason sometimes we ask “All is well?” or “something is not right today”. The true sign of a sincere and natural smile is typical wrinkles around our eyes and I know because I practiced to smile a lot. My suggestions to all the girls, please smile more often since you never know who may be falling in love with your beautiful smile.

Can She Talk The Walk?

As they say actions speak louder than words the same way its very appealing for a Guy if that girl knows how to hold a conversation. Guys like me who feels difficulty in initiating a conversation and discussing the common topics then it become very necessary that she must have opinion about things which can bring us to common ground where we can put the foundation of the relationship.

The way she talks and the tone she uses to put her point forward. In few words if a girl who can hold a conversation is already attractive in a guy’s mind. For me she would be my 2 AM friend who can give opinion on some random thoughts which keeps me occupied all the time and she would be my conscious who can give me advice on the situation where I am stuck at times. 

The way She Carries Herself

They say that beautiful is something a girl needs to be but I believe instead of that she can be intelligent, interesting, witty, funny, sarcastic and 100 other things which she believes she can be. I think there are few things more beautiful than a confident woman and sometimes I will walk by a woman that radiates such confidence that I am automatically feel drawn to her energy. She must know how to carry herself whenever she is entering a room or a party. It is so attractive on a physical and nonphysical level. She must be strong and know who the heck she is.

Even if you aren’t feeling particularly confident one day, pretend you are. Carry yourself with confidence anyways. Men are attracted to women who know how to carry themselves.

Foot (First) Impression (Tumhare Pair Bahut Khoobsurat hain inhe jameen par mat rakho, Maile ho jayenge)

Okay, so its not a surprise anymore that some of the men love slim legs and they notice this about a woman. How she maintains her feet is another thing men notice and care about. In my opinion (I may be wrong) if a woman can look after her feet, she is someone who pays attention to details. I won’t write further as I do not have any intention to objectify something.

Her Sense of Humor

In fact this is the most important thing for me because I am being sarcastic sometimes which contains dark humor too. So I believe she should be the one who can understand these jokes and my pure intentions. You know it should not be our responsibility to make her laugh, we could expect the same from her. I hope guys are not expecting too much out of it lets say when we are having a bad day, she could try to make us smile with some humour or those tiny jokes and she must not give up until she knows that its fine. She must take life not that serious and even if she messed up something… so what? Make a silly remark and move on.

Ambitious, Humble and Her Refusal to settle for anything but the best

Everytime I see a woman actively pursuing her dreams and trying to get a better life for her and her closed ones. I always applaud that person and it find it very attractive myself because these qualities inspire me too. I want that person to know what she really wants and refuse to settle for anything less whether in a job, in a relationship, friendship or in life. I would be more than happy to change myself in order to alter my plans for her if she is so driven to become what she want to be. This may even mean to stand up for yourself and maybe even revaluate some relationships too. In my opinion everyone’s happiness is non negotiable so why not hers.

Needless to say confident and ambitious means cocky and sometimes people miss the difference. For me remaining humble is an essential part of knowing how to carry yourself. She can be more successful, most beautiful and most amazing human being in the world but she must not think that she better than others. That is being humble.

Sense Of Style 

A sense of style is a really fun way to express yourself because sense of style means for is to feel confident whatever you wear or wear those clothes in which you feel confident. Do not follow a fashion just because its trending and you have to be a part of that race. A Classy dresser lady has already bagged brownie points from him because the way she dresses gives us a certain impression about the woman personality and preferences. 

My have my biased opinion about dresses, if she drapes a saree I am already in Love (obviously she must know how to carry herself). In my alternate universe she must wear Saree at least once in a week not for people in general for me. Her ability to give an outfit personality AND be comfortable in it is what amazes me.

All said and done, she has her own preferences and rights to choose what is good for her and how she wanted to lead the life. However she can have many secret admirers (Not Stalkers) which even she might not know. Unless you are interfering with her privacy and personal space liking someone is very natural. So my advice to people out there is find someone who has these qualities and keep then with you and fight for them because it will help them as well as you. You will get a chance to be with most amazing person who can inspire you and support you. 

I have heard this quote somewhere “Naari Kal bhi Bhaari thi, Naari Aaj bhi Bhaari hai… Purush kal bhi Aabhari tha Purush aaj bhi Aabhari hai”.

Lets Meet a Virgo – A Zodiac Sign

 I decided to stop writing and tried to archive this blog as my personal diary because things are happening in life on a random basis. Before I could do so as I have a curious mind and am a overthinker I thought of writing something about a very special Zodiac sign with whom vibes are on a different level. There are few people who are in my life and share the same Zodiac sign “VIRGO”. Virgos are the balance between two extremes they are loyal and romantic and the same time they can be critical and aloof. If you want to have a good connection with Virgo you must know how to work with a Virgo’s quirks, either they are positive or negative. The most important thing is to be patient and understanding. My Mom and few of my friends are Virgos so I might know what I am talking about.

You might have seen those detective stories where Karamchand is taking his time and going through his thoughts to connect the dots and dissect every tiny detail which he has captured. Using his supernatural deduction, the guy identifies the solution in clear flash. I might not know the Zodiac sign of Karamchand but I am sure he would be Virgo. As this is Virgo’s ultimate super power. They are born with a giant magnifying glass via which they experience the world. They notice almost everything starting from dust on the floor to how you smile when you are in love. They are willing to help make your reality better with their magnified understanding. I think I have set the context then let grab the popcorn so we can decode a Virgo.

A Virgo is the most grounded sign of the Zodiac and they are very flexible, non-obsessive and easy going by nature. Virgos are hard core professionals and if I say they worship their work then I am not over amplifying. They experience series of job changes and after spending time in exploring areas in initial stage of their career they get to their right path and stick to it rebelliously. It may take a while for their partners or family members to come to terms with this however, like the Libra, the Virgos too balance well between their professional and personal lives.

An empathetic soul: A Virgo is always there for the people in need, it does not matter whether they are known to them. On other hand they can be a bit analytical and critical about the people, this trait comes naturally to them. However, if you combine criticism and modesty then people take criticism also with open hand. My favourite trait in Virgo is their great sense of humour and their ability to work under pressure. It comes naturally to them. Count your blessings if you have a Virgo as a life partner this line is dedicated to my Pappa if he decided to read this post.

A variable Sign: It means they are open minded mates, eager to understand your opinion on any latest movie or can plan an impromptu trip. They are open to change within themselves that’s how they roll. For example, I know someone if he/she can go to a religious place to live for 3 months he/she will come with new wardrobe and with religious views along with some new habits. They tend to surprise even best of us.

They are guided by philanthropy and can envision a better world where they try to convert that vision into reality. Don’t get confused it is different from daydreaming and never stop them from doing this else you would become their number one enemy. They might feel insensitive, but they truly want the best for others.

Worst Traits: I don’t know how this section would be perceived when it will reach out to the Virgos I know but I will try to keep this as blunt as Virgos are. Most of the time they feel disappointed just because they can not fix everything around them. They wont accept that the universe is fundamentally flawed. Once they are disappointed, they keep these thoughts to themselves as they are chasing the impossible standards and sometime, they suffer from imposter syndrome (Imposters' suffer from chronic self-doubt and a sense of intellectual fraudulence that override any feelings of success or external proof of their competence). They could try to maintain order, but they must learn that life is messy and that’s why it is interesting.

A secret which I know about Virgo: As we have established that Virgo has high standards, and they are high maintenance, but I know for the fact that they crave simplicity and have a deep connection to nature. They can be happy on coffee date around the corner coffee shop, but you must be ready to listen the critics if the coffee is not good. You can catch them reading books, doing their own medicine making from herbs, having green tea while enjoying the nature. You can also see them analyzing each and everything under the Sun. Virgo operates from a place where inward thinking is the highest skill which means they just recognize the danger of speaking too soon or without being sure. I am not implying that they are unwilling to express their thoughts. There is a difference.

Even after reading and analyzing all these traits, you are interested in dating a Virgo… its an interesting decision. This thought could come because of two reasons either you have your life sorted already or you are open to getting you life together because this journey may be tiring but would be very interesting. Dating a Virgo is not a joke, and it is tough than dating a Libra.

Virgo is critical perfectionist who will call you out on your harmful behavior and help you find solutions to reconcile (this has become my favorite word since I moved to Bangalore) with your demons and in order to do so they can give you silent treatments. Remember, they have the best of intentions for those they love, and they will always communicate with you when they feel the time is right. I might need validation on these thoughts because these are based on my observations and the knowledge which I acquired 7 years ago when I met a Virgo first apart from my Mom.

So even after all this you want to go ahead and ask her out then you must know the following:

Straight forward and No nonsense attitude: They are very straight forward and have zero tolerance to unnecessary flashiness. When it comes to relationship, they hate mind games and withholding emotions. Instead of them making assumptions for you they prefer having you to be straight with them. I personally feel this is the most difficult part for me to go through as it is not a great trait (Being a Cancerian) I have. While pursuing Virgo, you must know that communication is the key. You must ensure that they know about your feelings else they might consider the whole process as a waste of time. They will think just as hard about your relationship as they do the meaning of life, so be willing to share what you think, too.

More thoughtful even from your thoughts: They have a mammoth memory and all the thinking Virgos do means that they know how to make people feel special. They wont need you to be that thoughtful in return as they often like being the most thoughtful person in the room. If you ever able to surprise your Virgo with something just as thoughtful now and then then your bond would be stronger than ever.

They look for someone who is driven, intelligent and mature and the only way to Virgo’s heart is to earn their respect. She would really want to know what you are thinking about, even if it's something as small as what kind of food you want for dinner or what movie you should watch next.

Loyal to a fault but not to be taken for granted: Virgos are loyal and committed to the things they believe in. They are also very organized, practical, and logical. A Virgo is someone who will always stay true to their word and follow through on their commitments. They work hard to make sure that they have a plan ahead of time so that they can be prepared for any eventuality. Virgos will do whatever it takes to get the job done and do it well - even if it means doing more than what is expected of them. So if you ever try to do a smart act then they will promptly hand you a one way ticket out of their lives. They don’t believe in bad investments either in relationships or otherwise.

No one should cheat at all, but you shouldn't cheat on a Virgo especially. Not only will these masters of intuition undoubtedly find out, but you will be breaking the trust of some of the most trusting people in the world. Trust and loyalty like theirs is hard to come by. They will always try their hardest to see the good in their friends and partners.

Kissed Many Frogs: As they have being on top of the game called life. It is most likely that your Virgo has loved many Mr./Ms. Wrong. It would be incorrect to say that they didn’t see the flaws in their partner, but they were willing to fix the flaws and tried to help their partners in their early encounters. In my personal opinion this is a blessing and a curse of being a Virgo as their compassion is taken for granted.

You have to be thankful to your Virgo for what they are doing for you and you must return the same dedication to them. Just try not to be another Frog.

Maa… Bahu Mil Gyi : Virgos are very family oriented and they will be a perfect partner whom you can introduce to your family. They will treat your family like their own and jump to help them whenever they need. Virgos prefer quieter ambiences to loud crowded places which makes family outings much more appealing to them than a wild night out with friends. So you have your family outing planner in your Virgo.

Your parents will love that your Virgo is hardworking with defined goals and these are kinds of people you bring home to your Mom because they are there for you for the long haul. Once you prove yourself to a Virgo they wont let you go easily.

Don’t Force them into things they don’t want to do (read Patience): Introvert by nature they might love you very much but they need their alone time. If the Virgo doesn’t want to go out then try suggesting staying home, eating dinner and Netflix.  Sometimes, a Virgo will need to be completely alone. Do not get upset if a Virgo does not wish to spend time with you. Use this as an opportunity to run tasks or catch up with your friends and family.

When in a relationship, you have to be patient. Be affectionate but don’t over do it like a 18 years old kid doing cute things (Calendar booking) too soon or you might just scare them away. Despite the random socializing, there’s a bit of a loner in every Virgo. They are fiercely independent and plunder some alone time every now and then. When in a relationship, as a partner, it’s imperative for you to understand that Virgos need to maintain an equal balance between their time with you, their family, their friends and their time alone.

At the same time, make sure to not be too clingy or needy because that'll only push them further away. Just be patient and give your Virgo the freedom to do their own thing. I promise they’ll appreciate it!

Ready for Harsh Critics: As you all know by now that Virgos are perfectionist and have an eagle eye when it comes to spot the errors. They notice every little details and sometimes it makes you feel that they are trying to be a know it all. It will become a horror story when you know that they are very vocal about pointing out those mistakes to you (they cant keep this with them as they want to improve you). Virgos are also the most self-critical of the zodiac. They take great pride in their diverse knowledge of things and tend to be very hard on themselves if they fail at a task.

When in a relationship, it can be a bit of a challenge to put up with their ridiculously high standards. As a partner, this is where you need to go the extra mile to support your Virgo when they’re being self-critical and remind them that they're only human too!

Well Informed and intense debaters: Virgos are highly intelligent and knowledgeable that’s the reason they admire this quality in their partner as well. One piece of advice that you must not challenge or question a Virgo unless necessary because they can suddenly become quite angry. Even in relationship, as they have already thought through and in case of debate or an argument they are rarely on the losing side. Generally, they don’t make a case unless they are sure so if this situation comes and you are up against them then you must have your facts right because your Virgo would be ready with all guns and cannons.

When on a date, remember that your goal is to know each other so your questions should be around those thoughts where you could get to know what matters to her. You must pay attention and keep eye contact and when a Virgo speaks up its after careful thought and observations. For example if I need someone to proof read my book then I would go to a Virgo women who would be in my corner rooting for my success and willing to go above and beyond.

In my personal opinion, she is a dreamer and a woman on mission who knows what needs to be done. That’s the only reason I want to be close to a Virgo so I can begin to recognize her. I believe if I would have a privilege of ever seeing her, I will definitely find someone who is nothing short of magical. She would be my source of inspiration who would be ready to listen to my dreams and my bucket list. I know good things come with time and apart from being persistent I cant do much about this Zodiac sign. I want to ask her about her day and want to see how much hard work is being invested for the future she has imagined where things would be perfect.

She’s basically perfect. Maybe *too* perfect

At last I would say, you must cherish your Virgo partner and they’ll cherish you right back. They rarely believe in second chances so don't ever give them a reason to mistrust you.

Sources: Internet and Personal Experience!

Fallen in Love with a Girl wearing Black Saree - A confession

This is the story of how I fell in love with you. It begins, unlike most stories, not when you first said hello to me and decided that you will talk to me, but months after we had become friends and when I got to know about you very closely. As I claim that I consume knowledge and observe people basis behavior and intent then how can I not be fallen for you. I hadn’t meant to fall in love with you. You were the last person on earth that I could ever see myself missing or feeling attached to the core especially given how much I would joke around with you about the things are going in each one of our life. I was going through a rough patch in my life where I was almost lost in dark who was having work as a distraction and just surviving basis some liquids and smokes. I have never thought that I will be in a condition to write this post for you as I always believed that you were out of my league and this won't work. I even cant be an option for you for obvious reasons but as they say Love is Magic and beyond logic. 

Why this post?

If I already have thought about all the circumstances and multiple outcomes of our story where I have convinced myself that it is not the best option for you then why I am writing this post as confession. In recent days I felt vert threatened by the thought that I might loose someone I love the most. I promised that if all went well, then I will put forward a truth which noone knows till date (They might have an idea as I might have given hints) and that can affect me deeply. Now things are going back to normal so I made and amendment in that promise that I will tell this truth via this post as this truth might not be worthy of someone's time.

Why it is Love at First Sight ?

It is because I have never thought about our equation earlier than this day. The day I saw her in Drape in Black Saree and attending the January wedding, I just lost it and for atleast 25 mins (Random Number to attract audience) the only thought was running like a sticker on my mind "Is that you or I am in my dreams?" along with a followup thought "Now I am creating a new Mess". I did all sort of escapism to run away from that feeling and multiple time validated also but it remained the same till now. 

If you only love the way they love, walk, or talk, there are fewer chances that the relationship will be a success. So, make sure you are sure about your feelings before making the first move.I also read lot of books to divert my mind and tried to undo things but you can not just wiped the feelings. There is a science behind this feeling which I read somewhere (if you do not find this consider that writer is me)  Even though some people do not believe in it.  True, deep love may not exist yet when you first meet someone, but you may create the memory of falling love later on in your relationship (think about it). This is my experience about this feeling and I can say that love at first sight can be real for certain people but staying in love is the deeper challenge.

How was she looking?

“If I had a flower for every time I thought of you, I could walk in my garden forever.”

When you like a woman, what do you really like in her? It will be different with different people, and it will be different at different times. If love really grows, first you fall in love with the woman because she is beautiful. That is the first available beauty - her face, her eyes, her proportion, her elegance. When I saw her in Black Saree with golden flowers and pink colour border was just flawless. Forgive me saying this but she was dangerously beautiful because that’s the way I felt at that point of time. Seeing her smile brings me a heavenly peace that can not be described and her Red Lipstick and big pearls earrings making her the most beautiful soul on earth. When I paid more attention, I noticed her scrolled ears and her elegant nose. It was love at first light. Her luminous, heavenly-white teeth flashed as she posed for the selfie. Her hair was a glorious tumble of star beam-gold and her black eyes set my heart on fire. When she broke into a smile, her mesmerizing, oyster-white teeth lit up the room. It could jolt you like an electric current when that megawatt smile gave you her full attention, filed to perfection. It was her look that makes her appear wild and superior.

 

All women and men at that party looking towards her and as she was the point of attraction there. She might have approached by many Guys and may be girls too. I can not comment on that as even I was not there and all this I have felt just by watching a photograph of her on social media. That was the day everything got changed for me.

 

I think I am a man in love. In a world where constant heartbreaks are approaching everyone. We meet at a point where things are not great for anyone of us and I have never tried explaining. I do not want to manipulate a true soul with my selfish intentions as I wanted to feel blessed and privileged. I just wanted to be the person with whom she can share anything without being hesitated.

  

This quote is so so true. The worst day of loving someone is the day that you lose them. We gasp and ache for air that only comes in short insufficient bursts. 

When this happens, we always question ourselves about why that person came in our life. If he/she would never have entered our life, then we would have never suffered such pain on losing him/her. That person's entry in our life, sometimes, changes us wholly and we do not ever get to be the same again after losing them also. 

By - A Patient's attendant (Room No. 102)