I'm Sorry that I Disappointed You...!

Dear You (DQ),

You are indeed a great personality - the way you talk, the way you smile, your obsession for success, love for your family. Your passion for your future, your thoughts, the purity in your heart, your friendly nature, your efforts to make me laugh when I feel alone, when I feel so low. Being yourself, being so generous, bold, caring, affectionate. You always pushed me towards success and every bit of this attracted me towards you.

I'm Sorry that I Disappointed You

I know I have disappointed you. But believe it or not, it was never my intention to make you feel that way. In the first place, why would I do that? Why would I hurt you? As they say sometimes people get hurt in the process because they care for each other.

I don't want to think highly of myself, but for you to feel that hurt only means that you care. And for me to be bothered this way also shows that I do care for you.

But I just want you to know, whether I do or don't do things that are beyond your expectations, or whether you get hurt or not in the process, I always care for you and it will never change no matter what happen as you say I can foresee anything. I would like to believe that.

Again, it was not my intention to disappoint you. But I know I cannot hide the truth that I was partly (or fully) at fault for making you feel that way. I am not good at doing such things on regular basis.

I have given you the reason to be disappointed about.

Believe it or not, I am sincerely apologetic for making you feel that way. I apologize for giving you reasons to believe that I can be a certain someone. I am deeply sorry for that.

I can't be sorry for the changes that have happened to me. Because if I do, I'll be saying sorry for being me. Whatever changes that have taken place in my life for the past days or months, are now part of who I am right now. And taking away those changes means taking away who I am.

Even though I was the cause of your disappointments, there is little I can do about that. It is your personal feelings that I cannot control. If only I could replace it with something wonderful so you won't feel hurt, I would do that. But having that feeling is part of who you are, and I don't want to change who you are -- good or bad -- because that is how I met and knew you.

We didn't have enough time to know each other better but I would like to believe that I know you. But I don't usually judge people or relationships based on the length of time they've been together. Because if you care and like to be with that someone, you'll make each day memorable. In that short period of time, we had our good days and bad days, and that's how we learn about each other. And I appreciated every second of it.

I feel bad for leaving because I know, knowing you, everything will not go back to the way it was. But I have hoped that things will be the same, somehow. But even though it's like that, the times and memories I had with you, will never change because they are already a part of me and who I am.

One of the things I really admire about you is your conviction and determination to be the best and for being the best. All my life, I have learned how to be satisfied for what I have. But with you, you pushed me to dream big again and to reach for more.

Thank you for being there to listen. I know that I’m a difficult person to understand but you were keen enough to listen and I am admitting that given the circumstances I hope my decision should be right the way I have planned it.

Thank you for being there for me. I will always remember how you were one of those people who encouraged me to do the best I could in everything I do. Trust me knowing you is one of the best feelings in my life and I can not give it away at any cost.

Yours,

A Man who can see the Future

Soulmates - Did you Find one ?

A soulmate is a person with whom one has a feeling of deep or natural affinity. 

Soul Mates... Soul Connections. We hear about it, read about it and some of us are lucky enough to experience it. We are all curious and most of us want one.

People think a soulmate is your perfect fit and thats what everyone wants... But a true soulmate is a mirror, the person who shows you everything that is holding your back, the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life.

A true soulmate is probably the most important person you will ever meet because they tear down your walls and smack you awake... but to Live with a soulmate forever ? naah its too painful. Soulmates, they come into your life just to reveal another layer of yourself to you and then Leave. Its not that they do not want to Live with you but they know that staying will make both of them vulnerable and they can not see you that way. They want to be your strength and make you see the world the way you want it.

A Soulmate's purpose is to shake you up, tear apart your ego a little bit, show you your obstacles and addiction break your heart open so new light can get in,make you so desperate and out of control that you have to transform your life.

How to identify them is the most important question and might make you curious to read forward:

• You feel overpowered and protected when he/she is around.
• You look into his/her eyes to communicate
• You just get each other all the time (All The Time)
• Its you against the world and you are ready to fight any battle.
• You might even feel an odd sense of déjà vu with them.
• Its Intense may be more intense than normal relationships, in both good and sometimes bad ways.

Hope you will find your Soulmate soon.

A Letter to Maa - Love of Life

Everyone has his favorite superhero or idol, when I was younger, I was infatuated with Super Commando Dhruv (comic Hero). I wished I could be as cool as him in toughest situation and without superpowers I can solve many problems.

Its taken me 18 years to realize that Dhruv is still the coolest superhero but I had a more important superhero in front of my throughout my life: My Mother.

It’s an amazing and humbling feeling when you are able to take a step back and just examine your life in its entirely. You realize how hardships, the high and lows, happiness and sorrow and everyone around you has made you the person you are today.

As I always say people come in your life with stronger motives and plans to teach you and made you a better person. Some will taught you how to become a stronger person or someone might thought you the traits which you must avoid in a person. Everyone in your life is there for a reason which will unfold the mystery of life.

I feel that the people even at my age (I am not very Old) are afraid to show their true emotions and thoughts to anyone cause they are afraid of being mocked and they think they might be considered as weak by their friends and peers.

I think if someone truly means something to you then you should tell her or him as often as you can. The intent of this letter is to let you, MOM, know how much you mean to me and to also hopefully inspire other sons and daughters to take a second and hold those moments and emotions.

Trust me being the most practical sons of yours, I wish I could keep you with me forever even if I know that’s impossible, until then I will make sure you understand how fortunate I am to have you as my Mom. I wish I could share even a small percentage of the unconditional love you have given to me with those people who grew up without that love cause I believe everyone deserves a mother’s love.

You are my number one Fan. Having you day in day out to support you and listen to you is one of life’s most powerful gifts. I do not know which superpower gives you the visibility to find the something which is being misplaced by me and you somehow know the exact location of it in the house.

There have been times when I questioned your actions, but only now do I understand that everything you did to me and for me was out of love. You said yes as often as possible, but weren't afraid to tell me no. You let me be expressive and creative without questioning it.

You showed me how to treat others with kindness, compassion and love. It's you who I believe has made me into a man, capable of expressing myself and my emotions, unafraid of being vulnerable, comfortable in my own skin and able to fully love and respect women.

The best thing about having you as my mom is that I'm still learning from you every single day. I know I haven't been the best son in the world. I've upset you; I've given you headaches. It's unfortunately part of the many phases every son and daughter growing into an adult has.

You have always been there in my achievements and accepting my failures. You never let me give up my dreams, no matter what obstacles were in my way of life. You have firm faith on me even when there were times, I didn’t believe in myself.

Don't ever doubt that you didn't do enough for me or have a single ounce of regret. You are more than I could have asked for in a mother. You are (and always will be) the caped caregiver and superhero of my life.

Love you Ma!