I believe most of the time too many thoughts go unsaid because either situations are not positive, or you are tied up with some imaginary bonds. However, as they say you can create/see beauty in everything, if you stop feeling hurt and believe in the Magic. I always say, “do the favour to the universe and don’t hide your magic”. I come from old school where Love at first sight was a thing, and this right swipe technology can not beat that. Sometimes Love can be most unexpected thing in life which can destroy all your plans and you cannot understand the maths (When you involve maths then it becomes more critical hence the reference) behind it. I wrote about what we see in a girl to get attracted however this can’t be true all the time and sometimes you get attracted to the vibe (Magic) when you were least expecting it. It’s a contagious and you won’t get over it.
Personally, I always get
attracted to broken souls, pain behind those smiles, Big eyes and hidden darkness which
is expecting a light of hope. Somehow, I start feeling responsible to fix and understand
those feelings (People say I don’t understand feelings and I don’t care about
them) so I can absorb and understand other people prospective. When you start
understanding the person by seeing the soul then there is no going back at
least for me. It’s a trap for me and I always remain there in Love. Sometimes
you cannot explain, what you see in a person. It is just the way they take you
to the places where no one else can. It’s hard to get rid of the demons inside
you because they were holding you once no one was there but it doesn’t mean you
have to be there even if you get a chance to embrace light. Sometimes I am in
love with the impossibility of us because being in Love is beautiful. That’s the
reason I am too old for Internet Love and I believe in falling in Love.
I am sure by now you would have
started to think what I am trying to say. I am having a mental block for almost
4 years as I failed to read a person with whom I had spend 7 years (3 years
knowing I judged her well and 4 years thinking what to do and how to get out of
it). In this journey for 4 years I have met few people who have helped me in
coping up the situation apart from Family and brother from other mothers. Those
people have worked magic in my life, and I fell for them unknowingly but never
expressed because I always was either in wrong story or at wrong time.
Love. It truly is a magical
feeling when it’s shared. Slow down. It takes time and, yes, it usually begins
with a crush. That can be frightening because no one likes to feel rejected,
and crushes can work both ways. I am sharing this letter so they can know how I
feel about them and there would be many more people who would share my thoughts
too (whoever have seen the magic). Just because people don’t vocalize things,
they love about you or the qualities they admire, doesn’t mean you aren’t admired
for all that you are. The second reason is to free myself by being vulnerable and
I believe this is the best way. One of the most beautiful things in a person is
emotional vulnerability, so why would I not use that to my advantage? Be the
energy you wish to attract and live more in the uncomfortable. I hope one day I could say "Will you be my Valentine forever?".
Dear You,
I love your energy and vibe and I believe you already know
that though. You know the last time I was easily able to see this when I was in
5th Grade, and I admitted that I liked a girl. I have a crush on you
or may be more than that because thinking about you makes me dizzy and all I
get excited when I see you virtually or in person. I have been feeling this way
for some time and I really don’t know how to say it and if I should say it
because things are much better this way where I don’t have fear to loose you
and I don’t want to find out if this revelation of feeling will change it. I
have never told you these feelings because I don’t want to make things awkward.
I am being the greatest overthinker alive and I know that you are too sweet to
lose over something silly like the romantic feelings of me for you which are
not mutual (I don’t know). I have always thanked my crushes for touching my
life in such a beautiful way which made me a better person.
We were connected for the longer time and but not have known
each other for the longest time but I know this for sure that I have feelings
for you. Whether they may be of infatuation or actual love, I don’t know yet. The
only thing I know that you are kind hearted, amazing, soulful and one of the
most fantastic people I have ever known. I couldn’t bear to see you hurt. I
would lose my mind.
Let me explain myself, my Cancerian friend says I always keep
things with me and don’t express in person which is not correct. As per him you
deserve to know (he doesn’t know you yet) and hear how truly amazing you are
and it’s unfortunate that in this internet and app generation that letters like
these are not written more often. First, you are hilarious, and I love that we
can build off each other’s humour. It’s not your wit or intellectual humour
because you are yet to reach there as training is in process but you are silly at the same time. When
I started interacting with you, I couldn’t believe that how effortlessly you
can be weird, quirky, goofy and childish at the same time. You seem like pure
light which just reached the darkest places of my heart which was closed for more
than years.
I also love and appreciate that you are sensitive, thoughtful,
and deep. My Mom is one of the strongest pillars in my life and she has taught
me that strength is not how little you can allow yourself to feel and care
about everything and be loving even you can be hurt. I love that you are strong
like that too. I love that you get emotional and are not ashamed by that as you believe that crying is good for beauty. It is
beautiful and inspiring and makes me feel comfortable letting my guards down.
Around you, I feel safe and protected. I don’t know if I can say I have ever
felt that way around anyone before. I love that you see and like me for who I
am and what I love.
I really do think you are incredibly cute and trust me that
is not why I like you the way I do. I like you for so many more important reasons
than the way you look. I love the way you are and the way you make me feel
basis your stupid ideas to spend my weekends (on B and A). You are kind,
affectionate, silly and loving and most inspiring thing is that you are hardworking,
have dreams, you are interesting and you are willing to fight for your dreams. I
always have this fear if people going to like me for me, who I am, for my
heart, with my broken soul and my darkness which kept me captive for the
longest time. For someone to love me like that I can wait a long time, because
I don’t believe there is anything more magical than true love.
I love you so much, and it’s not just a made-up thing. When
I’m with you, I feel like everything is possible and that life is perfect. It’s
as if God created you to make my world the best place for me to live. You know,
I can’t describe the kind of happiness that I feel every time my cell phone
beeps and received your message. You deeply warm my heart and soul with those
messages that you send to me. Those messages inspire me in life.
I know you and I believe I don’t have much time and current circumstances
and timings are not favorable for us. I don’t want to make things more
complicated for us than they already are. Regardless of your feelings and even
if this doesn’t work, I will always cherish this connection forever and keep
these feelings valuable and private. The thought of you reading this letter and
able to understand that you are the one I am talking about and feeling so
loved, appreciated, and valued brings me nothing but happiness. You mean
everything to me. I love you for who you are, and I would never change that.
Your smile, your eyes, your voice. I love it all. When you laugh, I laugh, when
you smile, you make me weak in the knees every beat of my heart is for you…
Thinking of you brings a smile to my face, and your face brings sunshine into
mine.
I have made myself understood that we might be those twin
flames who make us better persons who can handle anything in life. That could
be the reason God has put us on those paths and somehow, I got connected to your
unperfect way of handling things perfectly. I will accept it someday. So just
spending time with you is something I look forward to. Every moment spent with
you is a moment I treasure. I was so happy and inspired to see you always and
almost every day is my happiness. Even though I know I am the only one feels
that way. But it’s okay as I am not wishing that you do admire and care for me
too. To see you is enough it brought smile to my heart. But unexpectedly I feel
that there is hope between us.
Here is my favorite pickup line which I have used with 100%
results might work on you “Hathi Naali me Bah nahi sakta, Main tumhare bina rah
nahi sakta.”
Sincerely,
Me
